THE MYRRH

Today, we celebrate our first year together. Tama nga sila – genuine love doesn’t mean that you’ve found what you’ve been looking for in another person, instead, true love only means you’ve learned how to love each high and low moments you’ve spent and will be spending with that other person. It makes sense, yes?

I was the most immature person a year ago – I extended my college to the fifth year and if it weren’t for the inspiration he gave me, I would still be in school right now – skipping class, failing due to absences caused by super partying the night before and every happy-go-lucky thing you can imagine. Though there are still times when the brat in me still kicks the hell out of me, I grew into a person who thinks about how to go about each obligation and responsibility I have each day.

Koko made me look forward to what more of life has in store, some on sale, for me (and him!). He also taught me how to make do of what’s there but still strive for the best. He is my best friend and the only person who knows all of my secrets.

Nothing feels better than making every day end with both of us sitting after dinner talking about a lot of things and waking up the next day in each other’s arms.

Cheeseball all over. It’s my first time to celebrate an anniversary with another person. Koko is my “husband” as my parents would constantly refer to him as.

Happy first anniversary! I love you, love and I will never tire of living my life with you. Always.

So the Gaga's new video premiered today. All I can say is... Ang gaga nya and I love her! Death to McQueen ang outfits!







in other news, please grab a pair of sanuk tubeflops!!! they're out na! here are some of the photos (sorry for the cahak resolution!) of the actual material that I styled, Koko love directed and Charles Buenconsejo photographed. :)

Thank you Anna Canlas, CitCit Sioson and Jez Zabala for making me force you to model! mwah! :)

Le sigh.
It's my mom's 58th birthday today and I can't believe I'm missing it.
I love you, ma and I'm always praying for the family. :)birt

I was featured for "Style Phile" in this day's Philippine Daily Inquirer. Thank you, Rosanna! :) An online version (which my mom had to print out only because they can't find any more PDI in Tugue) is available here


In other news, it's been more than a week since Koko and I have stayed here in our new house. We're still adjusting and fixing things. We're celebrating our eleventh month tomorrow. I love you, love and nothing feels better than waking up with you in my arms. Happiness.

Three things I want.

Rest a bit.
More work.
Peace of mind.

I have never felt so used yet so neglected. I am annoyed - so pissed that I can't even construct my thoughts now. All I have to do siguro is just to understand and see what goes next. I am afraid of a lot of things and there's no telling anything or anyone about what would happen. I am so mad, I wish I could have just squeezed my path away into oblivion but no, I can't. Because I am hoping, still, for everything to turn out just fine.

Please send me inner peace. Virtually.

Greenbelt 5. Cibo with Kate, Cit and Happy then Terrace with Marc, Pam and Mars! Hilarrriooooous! Try MISMO!!! Available at Hobbes & Landes :)

Hush baby. That was my first - and it was a challenge.

I am about to make a very big step. There's no telling how everything will turn out, but the only thing I know is that for the rest of my life, I would rather spend a little and sacrifice more, as long as I wake up with the one I love, than live a life of uncertainties alone.

Please grab a copy of this month's Chalk Magazine. I was one of the contributing photographers and they had me featured as one of manila's bright young people. hahaha :)

So the most unexpected thing happened. Now I can delete the “I have never been confined in any of the hospitals anywhere in the world” fact in the 101 facts of my life and learn that I should start looking after my health in the most frequent of ways possible.

Thank God for my family, my close friends and koko for being beside me throughout this experience.

I got discharged today and after three days of being in my “hospital hiatus”, I realized that life is indeed rather brief. Although in between those days, I shared unforgettable memories with koko and my friends (Imagine us singing and dancing to the tune of “genie” by SNSD and “fire” by 2ne1! LAUGHTRIP SOBRA!), what I just think of now is surpassing a life full of more struggles by fighting each trial with fun and the best vibes I could muster.

When I woke up earlier, the news said that Former President Cory has already passed away. I don’t really know much about her heroic deeds but I was a people power baby and if it weren't for her, I will still be living in a nation under the marcos regimen and I don't like that..

So people, please listen to me. What we need is clean drinking water, fresh fruits, laughter (lots of it) and the best thoughts with the people we love. That way we can all be healthy and happy.

My favorite michael jackson song is black or white because that's the first song I've actually heard, sang and seen (I always went nuts during my super bibo kid days when I saw the video on mtv and just get amazed with the changing faces and all). It didn't actually affect me that he's gone - not until today while watching his memorial.

He is my 80's icon and Madonna.

Let me open this entry by posting one photo I would have to treasure for the rest of my life. This was taken by the premiere filipino fashion designer Rajo Laurel and I cannot muster the right words how happy I am for this.


I miss working 'til the wee hours for a shoot - because it really doesn't feel like I am. I'm looking forward to more fun! The secret!!!

But this week, I've done two shoots as the fotog. One for chalk (which will be out on Aug) and the other for Tita Cecile's plaza sizzlers.
On monday they'll shoot eighteen "kids" for a magazine and I'm one of it. I am genuinely super excited because I can't stand just staying at home while doing nothing. I'd rather I was out working than staying at home just in complete stupor - stupid! Haha.
I'm excited about a lot of things but god knows I need to do things before i achieve even a single of it.

I'm going to the preview ball tonight pero I still have nothing to wear.

My schedule's been so wild, I don't even remember the things I've done on a specific date. But from what I am reckoning now as a some sort of motivation is that I get rewarded (in more ways than one) by the things I do which I am usually loving plus the idea that soon, with so much excitement building up, I'm doing one big step with the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.

In other news, my name appeared on this month's Preview Bride Supplementary as an intern but the thing I am not really loving (read: I superrrrrrrr hate!) is that they short-named me. Pero I think I'm the only Myrrh you know, you know?

Well, tomorrow will be another day. (:

it's mom and dad's 35th wedding anniversary and i'm sooooo proud for having them my parents.

(With Jason Mraz's song Lucky playing)
Today is our sixth month together and because of our wild schedules, we'll celebrate it on Saturday.
That's it. Nothing Special today but the fact that we're working our asses off to make reality to our plans.
Thanks for always understanding and making ways to shoo-off the psycho in me.
I love you, Love.

Work should keep me busy and alive as what I have anticipated it to be but even though it requires a lot of time, I still get the down feeling and it doesn’t seem so funny anymore. 

There are plenty of things I would want to do (and accomplish) but there really is no telling when you get at the threshold of just hanging on or kindly giving up. 

I’m afraid and I hate it. 

I hate bad thoughts but it’s slowly consuming the hell out of me. Well, there’s nothing in this world like eternal happiness, right? I’m praying tomorrow will be much better. 

Yosi nalang.

My second TVC has finally come out! I'm so proud with this as it was directed by Stephen Ngo! C'mon!!!!!

Myra hand and Body Lotion
Agency: Y&R Philippines
Production House: Provill
Director: THE Stephen Ngo
Producer: Sunshine Cruz

C'mon!

Frustration has kept me up all week. But I can still say I will drag myself up and just win over my nega-self.
When your family showers you with support, you learn that there is no other way but to go on and fight.
When your friends express how they believe in you, you hear the fact that you really can.
When your love reminds your importance and the dreams you've both built, you realize that life has brought you to exist for a purpose.

Send me good vibes. :)

Praying hard,

Myrrh

Frustrations eat the hell out of me and sometimes, inasmuch as I would want to see things as an entirely constructive process, I move to questioning my sanity and just end up with no answer.

Shet wala pa akong trabaho.

I'm scheduled for two job interviews tomorrow and I'm anticipating a more captivating job description and a better offer. No, I'm not choosy - really not at all. I just want to be in a job that I can bet my left ball on to really excel in. I'm thinking that I'm more on the sissy-pussy-i-anymo-can-pee-my-pants side that's why I turn down jobs that "scare" me. But let's see what happens tomorrow.

Thankfully, the family is here plus my boyfriend, who is superlatively busy (pssst galingan mo dyan!) is awesomely supportive. I just came back here in Manila from a 2-day Lucena trip with the boyfriendiva and I reached home from Glo where we caught Miss Pettigrew the movie with love and his cousin isay. Parents plus sibs are here but they're all in Astoria so I've got no choice but to go tippity typing in a place ner my apartment.

Ow shucks I need a job to pay my makeup. Char!